'Shift Happens'

Starts With Goodbye
Carrie Underwood

I was sitting on my doorstep,
I hung up the phone and it fell out of my hand,
But I knew I had to do it,
And he wouldn't understand,
So hard to see myself without him,
I felt a piece of my heart break,
But when you're standing at a crossroad,
There's a choice you gotta make.

So Kellee and I were just hanging out tonight, and discussing life and the shifts that I've been facing lately. I'm not going to lie, things have been emotionally hard for me in certain aspects as I say goodbye to the familiar and hello to the new and exciting- something very hard for someone who isn't very fond of change- but, as we were talking, a song came on that made me stop, think, and really understand what's going on.

[Chorus]:
I guess it's gonna have to hurt,
I guess I'm gonna have to cry,
And let go of some things I've loved,
To get to the other side,
I guess it's gonna break me down,
Like falling when you try to fly,
It's sad, but sometimes moving on with the rest of your life,
Starts with goodbye.

Sometimes, I find myself being torn between two great things, but I have to really stop, think, and, as the song puts it, move on. It helps that there are other amazing people out there in the world that I can get along with.

I know there's a blue horizon,
Somewhere up ahead, just waiting for me,
Getting there means leaving things behind,
Sometimes life's so bitter sweet.

So, I (sort of) say goodbye to something that has taught me so much. Being where I was in January and then February and March, I've learned that things don't always turn out the way you expect. I've learned that I need to put my trust in the Lord, and when the time is right, and I have prepared myself both emotionally and spiritually, the right man will enter into my life. I still have time to learn and grow, I'm still young.

[Chorus:]
I guess it's gonna have to hurt,
I guess I'm gonna have to cry,
And let go of some things I've loved,
To get to the other side,
I guess it's gonna break me down,
Like falling when you try to fly,
It's sad, but sometimes moving on with the rest of your life,
Starts with goodbye.

I've also learned, through this entire experience, to really love myself for who I am. I've found great strength in my Savior, Jesus Christ, and I've really tried to align my life style with his teachings. My testimony has grown immensely and my roommates have let me know that they noticed. I want my will to be the will of my Heavenly Father, and I believe, or rather I know, that when I have started focusing on making myself better, the Lord will introduce me to someone who can help me along that path. As my dear friend Alice puts it:

"Dance with the Lord, and he will let the right man cut in"

Time, time heals,
The wounds that you feel,
Somehow, right now.

So, now it's time to move on and learn from someone else. I'm excited for the insights I will gain in the next few months as I change classes and continue living in Provo Utah. I'll miss the familiar more than anything- it will always be a part of who I am- but, no matter what, the Lord will always love me, and my family will always love me. I have the most amazing friends and have been blessed with their love, comfort, and guidance. I thank the Lord everyday for the people I have been blessed to come in contact with- the old and the new.

[Chorus:]
I guess it's gonna have to hurt,
I guess I'm gonna have to cry,
And let go of some things I've loved,
To get to the other side,
I guess it's gonna break me down,
Like falling when you try to fly,
It's sad, but sometimes moving on with the rest of your life,
Starts with goodbye,
I guess I'm gonna have to cry,
And let go of some things I've loved,
To get to the other side,
Starts with goodbye,
The only way you try to find,
Moving on with the rest of your life,
Starts with goodbye,
Na na na na na na na.

Bring on the change, I'm ready.